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1.28.2008
I almost don't remember this blog. It's an uncharted island that I wanted to forget. WHAT DO YOU LIVE FOR WHEN EVERYTHING THAT YOU LIVED FOR IS GONE? It's been 4 months since I lost the girl that I have loved with all that I am. I still cannot accept it. I loved her as I have never loved anyone before. I wished nothing but her happiness even if it meant that I have to sacrifice mine. I loved her with everything that I have, with all that I can give. My only wish was to be with her for all my life. I was her best friend, but she was my life. And on the night of 15th September 2007 I lost my life. My heart stopped beating, my mind froze, my body lost its soul. I was ripped apart, crumbled, trashed. I was lost, everything was gone. I am nothing but a souless person walking without a heart. She lay there, as peaceful as ever, with a bruise or two on her beautiful face. As I stood there, looking at the girl I loved most, I lost control. I cried like I never did. She was no longer with us. She was gone. I wanted to hug her, to hold her, to tell her I loved her. I called her but she never responded. Every night I wished it was just a dream. But I never woke up from that dream. As she was laid on her resting place, I knew she was there. I felt the breeze blow against me as if it was comforting me. I knew it was her when I saw a yellow butterfly fluttering near Celine. I knew. It was her. I often visit her grave. I talk to her, just like we used to. Only, now she doesn't answer. I am the only one talking. But it's okay. When I'm sad, I talk to her. When I'm happy, I tell her why. When I'm angry, I let her know. Sometimes I cry there, sometimes I laugh. She's my best friend. I love her. It was unspoken. I love her more than I love myself, and this is true. She never knew. She never noticed. Now everything's too late, my love has gone to heaven. She took my heart and my soul with her, but she never knew. She never knew how much she means to me, Just how much I love her. Before I leave her grave, I whisper my silent love. Oh how I wish she could hear me. As I sit here, typing, how I wish I could turn back time. Turn it back to when she could still hear me say my heart. I love you. Can you hear me? Listen. I LOVE YOU AYNEE. MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD. MORE THAN MYSELF, MORE THAN LIFE. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN LOVE. I LOVE YOU AYNEE. + Joseph updated @ 2:14 AM
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